the absolute bottom
I've got zero optimism right now.
I don't know how to get back up. Its been the absolute worst week ever. Ever ever ever.
I'm doing everything half-heartedly. I am so mad at myself.
I fidget during lessons. Daydream when people are talking to me. I couldnt even play the piano or clarinet without screwing up. Not even 1 line of music.
And my ipod isnt lifting my mood either. My songs are on a loop and i'm getting sick of them.
I've got so many things to think about. Why tell me now. I want to do my best in everything i'm dealing with now; school, piano, band and self study sessions. i know you are trying to help, but I don't want to be pulled away.
Dear agony, what would you suggest i do to juggle all that's on my schedule?
And why isn't music saving me anymore?
I really hope Saturday at Yogga's yellow-themed party would cheer me up.