you constantly ask if i am ok.
and every time you do, i'd say yes.
but its not ok.
i'm not ok.
it still hurts.
i still cry inside everytime i think about it.
i want to smash my head into a wall and watch in a mirror as my brain oozes out and i slowly lose consciousness.
its so damn hard to accept compliments and gifts and all kinds of reward that i dont deserve.
its not about this or that.
its about regret.
or the lack of.
makes me feel so stupid.
and no one knows.
being a teen sucks.
being a teenage girl sucks.