Like, I'm happy now because i've always been feeling so fucked up like this to the point where i'm just so used to it, numb to its effects, while in actual fact, i'm still a sad and messed up kid. And then this happiness, it's like opiates, a sedative. It numbs my thoughts and masks my sadness.
Hmm..
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Nah. I should just shut these thoughts out and stop turning every positive thing into something so depressing.
Yes. I am happy because I AM.
Fuck tumblr for messing with my head. Nyahah. Ok bye.